Life According To Tammara!

Fall....... The smell of pumpkin spice lattes and pumpkin bread. The burst of vibrant yellows, reds, oranges, and greens taking over the outdoors. Leaves falling and crunching beneath your feet. The crisp cool air signaling that winter is on it's way. Bonfires, leggings, boots, and oversized shirts....... (I know I probably sound "basic", whatever that means.... but I could care less. I LOVE IT! ) It's the time of year, I can really enjoy the outdoors because there's nothing blooming that I'm highly allergic to, it's not too hot or too cold, and it's absolutely stunning outside. And to celebrate the beginning of my favorite season, I took a little trip to Dahlonega to get away, rejuvenate, and to spend time with one of my best friends. This trip was much needed. Prior to going I had been working what seemed nonstop, with little social interaction. And for those who may not know, I need human interaction and intimacy on a regular. If not, I get an...

.... It's 2:51AM on a Saturday morning and I'm wide awake. My body has become accustom to working nights and sleeping during the day, so it looks like I'll be up for the next few hours. To make use of my time, I thought I'd blog. Since the last time we talked, a lot has happened. I've taken on this thing called life and I'm wearing many hats. I am a full time nurse, Georgia State Coordinator for CUFI, and a prayer team member. While learning to balance these new roles, God threw in a curve ball..... My dad passed away. Now before you go misinterpreting that statement... I do not blame God... well at least not anymore. To help during this time, I have been reading Rick Joyner's book The Call. In it God says to him "When you abide in Me, you will see nothing but glory. This does not mean that you will not see the conflicts, confusion, darkness, and deception in the world, but when you see them you will always see My answer to them. When you abide i...

As the night draws near and the day slowly comes to a close; I sit back, close my eyes and reflect. Summer 2015 was one for the books. One chapter ended and another began . After 18 years of being in school, I graduated from college and became a registered nurse. It has been a bitter sweet time. Sweet because I've worked for years to get here. I've spent long nights studying, dreaming, praying, and researching how to make my dreams come true. Now that I've accomplished this dream, the question now is..... What's next? For many of my peers, it's getting the dream job, going to graduate school, getting married, having a family, making it big, etc. While all of that is appealing, there's something inside of me that just doesn't feel enthused with solely those things. I've always longed for more. Hungered for more, and now is no different. My spirit is constantly crying out for "More Lord, More....". Today, as I took my morning stroll in the park,...

Hello my faithful readers! It has been a minute since I've posted. Life has been busy. Earlier I was studying for my state boards to get my RN license, and by the favor of God.... I received them. I am now Tammara, BSN, RN. Praise Jesus! He's totally faithful. When he plants a desire in your heart, NOTHING... I REPEAT NOTHING can get in the way of his plans for you, so rest in that truth. Since taking the NCLEX, I took a break just to enjoy everyday life. Smell the roses if  you would. And for the past five days, I have been in D.C. with Christians United For Israel (CUFI)..... Those five days were life changing. I learned so much, and God ignited a fire within my heart as well as revealed some amazing things to me, all in which I hope to share soon through a vlog. So stay tuned my loves....

This Post is going to be short and sweet, but it was really on my heart to share.  I'm going to start out with a question: What does it look like for you to offer yourself to others? .... Just meditate on that for a moment.  For me the very thought of offering myself makes me nervous. It's scary. To offer myself, that means I have to give myself to others... be vulnerable, authentic, and true to my very being. With that I could face rejection. And what's worse than being rejected by others for simply being you. It impacts our hearts... it makes us reject who we are, but even more reject God. To reject oneself is to reject God, because he created us. We are basically saying to God, "You messed up. You did not create me right." This past week, I was listening to a Podcast by Candace Johnson from Bethel Redding, where she talked about Redefining Success. And in there, she says to be successful looks like showing up. For me that was so powerful! So often I d...

You know that saying that "God works in mysterious ways".... well he totally does. I would have never thought I'd be in Cartersville post graduation helping a friend. However.... here I am! Since being here, I've faced fears head on and gotten to spend quality time with some amazing people. Being here is so incredibly peaceful.... from the mountainous hills to the abundant love that has been shown to me by those around me. I couldn't have planned it better myself. Though, I have no clue why I landed here, I know that it was by no accident. God never ceases to amaze me. In such a short amount of time, I've experienced a roller coaster of emotions... from feeling sad about a chapter of my life ending .....to fear of the next chapter of my life... then finally being hopeful for what's to come.  I don't know what the future holds. I don't know if I'll like my new job. I don't know where I'll end up living or what car I'll ...

So... I was inspired to post a second time tonight! I wanted to share something God spoke to me a few months ago. It's always so beautiful to me when Holy Spirit downloads the sweet words of Father God right into my spirit. I pray that these words are inspiring to you and that God ignites something within your heart! "Eternity has begun. i knit you together in your mother's womb. i called you forth. i set you apart. i knew you. i loved you. i wanted you. my heart overflowed with joy, love, passion, and contentment for you. you were and are my pride and joy. my love for you is greater than you will ever know. i burn with love and passion for you. i desire…. i want you. you are not a second choice. you will always be my number one choice. to me you are worth everything i have. you were worth my life. i will never stop coming for you. you are mine. you are mine. you are mine you are mine. i look at you and i see my greatest creation. i am so proud of you. you bring joy. ...

Today,  I got up at 6 AM..........okay 7. I hit snooze 6 times. Once up, I proclaimed it was going to be a good day. I immediately began declaring God's word over myself, speaking life, and rebuking fears that I had for the day. One of those fears was getting lost. For those of you who know me, I hate driving to unfamiliar places. Anxiety builds and I freak out, and today I had to drive to Buford, which is about a 1.5 hour drive.  But, instead of letting anxiety get the best of me, I gave it to God in exchange for his love and peace.... After I started speaking life (positive words about who I am, bible verses of God's promises etc), I began to feel motivated and a sense of peace came over me. And throughout the day, I heard words of affirmation and approval in my spirit. It was as if God himself, was cheering me on.... it was great! And for the first time since graduating, I knew everything was going to be okay and hopefulness began to fill my spirit.... Praise Jesus!

 I officially moved out of my apartment yesterday. Athens has been home for me for almost five years. Those five years were some of the best years of my life. I met some of the most amazing people and made some incredible friends. Friends who I will love for the rest of my life.  My new reality is still hard to fathom. I have literally spent the majority of my life in school. School was a buffer between me and the "real" world. Now, my life and schedule is no longer restricted by class, studying, tests, practicum, etc. From here on out, life is what I make of it. There are so many questions running through my mind.  What do I want to make out of this life? What do I want to live for? How do I want to live? What does my life stand for? And for the first time in a long time, I don't know what to expect. It's intimidating, foreign, scary... To cope, I have to repeatedly remind myself that I am not alone. God is with me. He has promised me hope and a future, and to ne...

So this is going to be a short post because...... I'M GRADUATING!!! I am currently sitting in a local Starbucks in Augusta reflecting over the past five years. In just two hours my college experience will officially come to an end. I will walk across the GRU stage and turn my tassel, symbolizing the end of one chapter and the beginning of another. The thought of my new reality brings about so many emotions. I am so thankful and so incredibly blessed to be where I am. God has grown me into an amazing woman, and I cannot wait to see where he leads me in this new chapter.... stay tuned... Also, a special shoutout to my AMAZING FAMILY (You know who you are.... as I always say, blood doesn't have to make you family)! You guys loved me so well yesterday!

God is so good! The last couple of days, I've been looking at cars. And for those of you, who may not know me.... I am a CONTROL FREAK! I like for everything in my life to be in order. Any subtle changes "messes up my homeostasis." And car shopping is no different. I have to find the perfect car at the perfect price.... which is so unrealistic. And as I continued my search today, God stopped me right in my tracks and reminded me who is in control! This is how he did it..... I went upstairs to get my notepad that contained my future salary (that's right.... starting in August, yo' girl will be working a grown up job!), so I could calculate how much I can afford to spend. When I returned to my computer and put my headphones back in my ears,  somehow (obviously God) my computer managed to play a prophetic word I'd been given last year. One of the words of encouragement was God reminding me that he has the finances for what I want to do in my life covered an...

It is almost 4 o'clock in the morning, and I'm still up reminiscing about the past five years I've spent in college. Looking back, I have changed so much. I can honestly say, I am not the same Tammara I once was. I entered college as a boy crazy, hell raising, immature girl. Now, five years later, I've grown into a God fearing, Jesus loving woman. When I initially graduated high school, I had my whole life planned out. I was going to attend The University of Georgia, graduate with a degree in psychology, go to nursing school, graduate again, and marry my college sweet heart all by twenty five. Great plan, right??? Well, despite it sounding great and all, things couldn't have turned out more different. I did attend The University of Georgia for three years. I met some amazing people, and made life long friends. I dated a few guys. Some of which were crazy and others who were simply amazing. However, it didn't work out, and I'm okay with that. I ended up not...