Life According To Tammara!

You know that saying that "God works in mysterious ways".... well he totally does. I would have never thought I'd be in Cartersville post graduation helping a friend. However.... here I am! Since being here, I've faced fears head on and gotten to spend quality time with some amazing people. Being here is so incredibly peaceful.... from the mountainous hills to the abundant love that has been shown to me by those around me. I couldn't have planned it better myself. Though, I have no clue why I landed here, I know that it was by no accident. God never ceases to amaze me. In such a short amount of time, I've experienced a roller coaster of emotions... from feeling sad about a chapter of my life ending .....to fear of the next chapter of my life... then finally being hopeful for what's to come.  I don't know what the future holds. I don't know if I'll like my new job. I don't know where I'll end up living or what car I'll ...

So... I was inspired to post a second time tonight! I wanted to share something God spoke to me a few months ago. It's always so beautiful to me when Holy Spirit downloads the sweet words of Father God right into my spirit. I pray that these words are inspiring to you and that God ignites something within your heart! "Eternity has begun. i knit you together in your mother's womb. i called you forth. i set you apart. i knew you. i loved you. i wanted you. my heart overflowed with joy, love, passion, and contentment for you. you were and are my pride and joy. my love for you is greater than you will ever know. i burn with love and passion for you. i desire…. i want you. you are not a second choice. you will always be my number one choice. to me you are worth everything i have. you were worth my life. i will never stop coming for you. you are mine. you are mine. you are mine you are mine. i look at you and i see my greatest creation. i am so proud of you. you bring joy. ...

Today,  I got up at 6 AM..........okay 7. I hit snooze 6 times. Once up, I proclaimed it was going to be a good day. I immediately began declaring God's word over myself, speaking life, and rebuking fears that I had for the day. One of those fears was getting lost. For those of you who know me, I hate driving to unfamiliar places. Anxiety builds and I freak out, and today I had to drive to Buford, which is about a 1.5 hour drive.  But, instead of letting anxiety get the best of me, I gave it to God in exchange for his love and peace.... After I started speaking life (positive words about who I am, bible verses of God's promises etc), I began to feel motivated and a sense of peace came over me. And throughout the day, I heard words of affirmation and approval in my spirit. It was as if God himself, was cheering me on.... it was great! And for the first time since graduating, I knew everything was going to be okay and hopefulness began to fill my spirit.... Praise Jesus!

 I officially moved out of my apartment yesterday. Athens has been home for me for almost five years. Those five years were some of the best years of my life. I met some of the most amazing people and made some incredible friends. Friends who I will love for the rest of my life.  My new reality is still hard to fathom. I have literally spent the majority of my life in school. School was a buffer between me and the "real" world. Now, my life and schedule is no longer restricted by class, studying, tests, practicum, etc. From here on out, life is what I make of it. There are so many questions running through my mind.  What do I want to make out of this life? What do I want to live for? How do I want to live? What does my life stand for? And for the first time in a long time, I don't know what to expect. It's intimidating, foreign, scary... To cope, I have to repeatedly remind myself that I am not alone. God is with me. He has promised me hope and a future, and to ne...

So this is going to be a short post because...... I'M GRADUATING!!! I am currently sitting in a local Starbucks in Augusta reflecting over the past five years. In just two hours my college experience will officially come to an end. I will walk across the GRU stage and turn my tassel, symbolizing the end of one chapter and the beginning of another. The thought of my new reality brings about so many emotions. I am so thankful and so incredibly blessed to be where I am. God has grown me into an amazing woman, and I cannot wait to see where he leads me in this new chapter.... stay tuned... Also, a special shoutout to my AMAZING FAMILY (You know who you are.... as I always say, blood doesn't have to make you family)! You guys loved me so well yesterday!