Life According To Tammara!

"The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full" (John 10:10) Over Christmas, I came down with a really bad stomach virus that kept me in my apartment for three days causing me to miss work and time with family. As you can imagine, this was extremely hard on my heart. Christmas Eve, I was okay. I was feeling God's peace and I was preparing myself mentally to miss Christmas day breakfast with the people I love. However, when the day came, I felt a huge wave of sadness, loneliness, despair, abandonment, and anger. I was so overcome with these emotions that I started to shutdown. Thankfully, I was feeling well enough to go to work. Being at work took my mind off the fact that Christmas this year wasn't what I'd envisioned.  The next day I still had these feelings and I couldn't shake them. The Holidays alone can bring up sad feelings for me since both of my parents have passed away, but spe...

Happy Holidays!!! As the holidays come to an end and the new year approaches, I am overcome with so many emotions. Some good and some leaving me in immense pain.  2018 has been a year of a lot transition. The year started off a little rocky. In the first few months, someone I love dearly did something hurtful. I went from dating to being single again. And from living with my brother to living on my own. So it has been quite the journey. To help process the year,  the next few days I plan on sitting before The Lord and allowing myself to feel the heartache of it all... letting Him heal my broken heart and speak truth into the places where the lies have become my reality. So many times recently,  I've found myself wanting to give up... even on God, due to so much disappointment. But every time I go there in my mind, something deep within whispers "He's worth it. He's so worth it..." So tonight I'm pressing into the tension allowing myself to feel a...